Monday, 26 September 2016

Some Lyrics Of Your Favorite Songs πŸ˜‰πŸŽΆ


"Faded"
You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us?
Another star
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alight
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Was it all in my fantasy?
Where are you now?
Were you only imaginary?
Where are you now?
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now?
Another dream
The monster's running wild inside of me
I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
These shallow waters never met what I needed
I'm letting go a deeper dive
Eternal silence of the sea. I'm breathing alive
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Under the bright but faded lights
You've set my heart on fire
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now?
Another dream
The monster's running wild inside of me
I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded

Wednesday, 21 September 2016

As Long As You Love Me

As Long As You Love Me

9/17/2016
3:53 PM

They say death is peaceful but its not. It is painful not only for the person who dies because he leaves everything he loves behind but also for the person who lose her beloved for the ill fate. For the family , for friends, for everyone who's someone departs forever. The hole that creates in your heart cannot be cured and the pain be healed. Life is too short to live specially when you are finally with the person you know is the one. God test everything very much that sometimes he tests with death and distress . And nothing will seem fair.

"Laura are you ready?" Ellen called out knocking on the door.
"Am coming mom. Please" she said. Laura was sitting on the chair in front of her dressing table her hair undone , her dress unzipped , her eyes filled with tears which gave her a blurred vision. She drifted of to her memories .

Laura first met Louis Stevenson, 22 and the youngest police in the town when she was waiting tables during her sophomore year in college.
"Order please sir" she asked him avoiding his eyes .
"hey" he said. He came to this coffee shop everyday only to see her and ordered coffee to every other waitresses except Laura who managed her best to keep away from the person gazing at her for months.

"Hello Sir"she replied formally.
"What do you do here" he asked a very foolish question trying to tease her .
" Oh I pour coffee at people's face do you want some sir " she answered equally back.
"calm down lady, lets see. how about a coffee now, here."he said straightly.
"No. Are you going to order or not?" She asked trying to hide her smile. His glittering green eyes , dark hair and his looks was all very disturbing for Laura and constantly avoided looking at his face.
"I am being honest I come here to see you and I am sure as hell that you notice it. I really expect you to come on a date Laura". He said With more of a demanding tone.
"oh god he knows my name, ofcourse he is handsome and  know why he comes here" she thought.
" Because you're a cop sir " she said
"How do you know am a cop"
Laura laughed aloud "You are in your uniform sir" πŸ˜„
"ofcourse " he said looking at his dress ."So when do you get out of this work"
"9 o'clock "
"9 it is then . I'll pick you up" he stood up smiling and walked out of the cafe leaving Laura in her wild ecstasy. She had tried avoiding him sending other waitresses to take orders for so long and all that has become such a waste in a matter of seconds. His smile , his honesty, his daily visit for months and his wit was enough for Laura to fall for him. It began that night.

They regularly met and had dinners together. They attended parties together and he took her with him while patrolling secretly and she being an arts student somehow managed to pass out of college missing so many classes  sneaking out with him.
"I don't understand why you still make my heart pound louder everytime you come near me " one night she confessed when she was kissed and dazzled by him as always  after their shopping together for Christmas.

Next month on her birthday Louis invited both their families for dinner one night for getting acquainted each other and that very night he was on his knees finally after two years of their dating . Laura was wearing the black dress he had bought for her.

"I don't think it is too late nor too early to ask you this. But I am on a spell which doesn't seem to lift and the spell I wish will never lift off from me but want it all for myself forever❤ . Because you are the one who has casted it the one who has bewitched me. I am selfish and I don't care because I Don't want to share you with anyone and I want to live my life with you as long as I live, as long as  you love me. Laura Martin so please will you do the honor of marrying me?"

Jumping with happiness Laura said yes and they got married in a month on the date they first met in the cafe.

A month later After coming back from their honeymoon in Barbados, Laura called Louis one noon to his police station asking him to come home immediately. Louis who came home Panicking heard a news that changed both their lives.

"Louis am pregnant"she told him. Hearing the happy news Louis scooped her into his arms kissing herπŸ˜ƒ. It was a celebration when the twins Liana and Laurent was born.

On the twins' second birthday Louis took them to New York to celebrate lavishly and their forthcoming wedding anniversary too. But That was their last outing. Their last happy weekend as a family together.

"Laura come out its time we are late" Ellen called again pulling her back from the memories of Louis and her happy days.

Now a widow at a very young age she stood in front of the mirror getting ready. When she bought this spare mourning dress Laura never thought she would wear it for her own husband's funeral. Six years of happiness was all god gave her.

"Its been an year since you have left me Louis and nothing has changed. Nothing." She cried " Am still working in the publishing house which now I hate, I still think of the days we were together which adds more and more pain. Every time I see a women happy with her love I wanna die and I still can't do anything when the kids say dada and I cry " she recollected herself and got ready hurriedly. she washed her face again and walked out their room. Closing the closest. She has not yet given away his clothes or things he used but keep them close to her.

She and her mother and Louis's parents walked through the grass towards his grave . " he would have turned 28 next month if he was here. Too young my son was"  his father Tom Stevenson said sadly. The man who shot Louis during the raid night has been killed on the same night by the fellow cops .

She stayed longer while the others left. Laura  found peace whenever she came here to the grave. "I wish I could lie here with you but only I can't leave the kids Louis." she said sitting beside his grave . She kept flowers every month coming and visiting. A slow breeze touched her hair.

She closed her eyes and memorized their every single moment together again. Every time he kissed, he hugged , he touched, how wonderful he made her feel. How happy they have been ever since they had met.But when she thought of it this time she didn't cry, yet feel a kind of happiness stirring inside. The memories made her going. She got up wiping her happy tears smiling,  thinking of his beautiful eyes she said "You have never left me Louis. You still live inside me where nobody can see or feel but me. And that's enough for me to go on living " . She got up and drove slowly back home to her kids, to her life that was awaiting with a new light and new hope .



Monday, 19 September 2016

Anonymous

Anonymous

9/18/2016
11:02 PM

There had been days I wished I never survived . Days I wished if only magic and miracles happened. Days I wished I was never born.And now I don't but glad that I never attempted to take away the life god has given me.

My name is Anonymous. I was only 17. A teenager who did everything with her peers back in high school. A total happy life. Like any other parents mine was strict too with so many rules. I constantly got grounded for getting late to get back home after dinner at friends and movies. But never did I do anything against myself. Alcohol and drugs was stars and a new comer in school and in town for everyone. Everything was secret and people lost themselves to addictions and crimes. But nothing did ever effect me and keep my straight A's in my studies.

It was prom and every single kid was high that night. Dancing through the evening with my boyfriend. I was so in love that it blinded me to know it was too late to walk back home. Scared of my daddy I ran home refusing My boy friend's idea of dropping me back home. That would have been better, better to be grounded for an year than ruin the whole life.

The one last thing I remember from that night was that I was hell scared and alone in the streets running with my blue silk gown and stilettos in my hands . There was a car following me and people in them whom I have never seen before. They were drunk and teasing me, very abusive commenting about my physique.

My legs weren't too fast nor was the night. Kidnapped and drugged I had no idea what happened nor where they have taken me.
A day later I was found in a cheap motel by the cops , my clothes piled on one side of the room and my purse and the license. Drugged continuously for 24 hours weakened my body to fight back they Said. I was in the city hospital ICU when I gained my consciousness with tubes connected to every part of my body. There were police men. I was moved to the room after a week with same number of tubes connected into me.

My body bruised and not able to move. I was drugged, beat up .

" Welcome back, we never thought you would survive with injuries and wounds. " the doctor said one day .

I was raped. By number of people which I don't remember. I have been on channels mom said weeping. "You are everywhere, your pictures , the videos "

I was taped I then understood. Why would I not be in every place. I didn't know whether to cry or laugh. Mom and dad constantly had fights on the way bringing me up and mom's pampering.I got a letter addressed from my boyfriend brought in by a nurse. He had written that he couldn't stand to watch his beautiful girl this way and is very disturbing and hurting for him that he is breaking up. I was shocked for two days. If only I didn't stay late that prom night this all wouldn't have happened. If it was not for him my life won't have been ruined. I was taken home a month later where I entered to hear the divorce of my parents. I never saw my dad again.

Everybody stared at me wherever I go. In school I became a porn star with the taped video in everyone's phone. I became a pit for sympathy and sarcasms from people. I became an issue for my best friends and avoided me forever. And for my ex boyfriend, the coward had found a new girl very rich and slutty. I prayed every night for my senior year to get over fast. Catching up with the lessons and spending all my time with studies I passed out as the school topper   and got admitted in Princeton for engineering.

I was again alone,opposite to all my expectations of my new life. A victim of rape, knocked unconscious and a bad girl who stayed late at night with her boy friend. Mom took back the case she filed before against the people who kidnapped me, running out of money. In a matter of months after I went to college mom remarried and left the state. Calling once in a while didn't make me feel any better from all the humiliations and loneliness . There were only few people who understood me. My professors .

From all the sympathy and accusations i started finding peace traveling alone around the country. Tired of shedding tears and loneliness i discovered a new life for my self. After my miserable Princeton days i migrated to England to start over, Were nobody will know who I am or see and measure me for what has happened to me or consider me bad .

Time heals true but it not only healed but has given me a new life. I met new people, made new friends but everything under a cover . Nobody knew what my past was nor did I tell anyone having no plans to ruin my life again. I fell in love again but this time with hundred percent surety that I have found a right man. The man who loves me, who had a heart to love me after I revealed my true self and my past. The man who desperately now wants me to be his.

I got engaged last week to be married. Now 28 , In the span of 12 years of my life because of one dangerous incident I lost my parents, my friends, my dreams, my dignity, my life. Yet things are falling into places, only because I never took any reckless  decisions. Because I dreamed , I hoped that one day things would change the way I want them to be. I believed in god, in me and it is shining its lights on me.

Thursday, 15 September 2016

When it comes to her ...

When it comes to her life

9/15/2016
5:47 PM

Every girl is unique. There is a beauty in the creation of a woman. From childhood to old age she will be the center of life for so many people. But when it comes her life , she is only a girl ,only a woman born to carry the burdens of the world just because she is a woman. We are so blind sometimes not to see the tears in her smiles. We never actually know the true feeling of a women.
No its just that nobody ever wanted to.

A woman is a living being born to obey and nod for everything the society says. Most of the times we see her dying inside to not to do things that suffocate her, that hurts her and her feelings and that is not something she likes.

Every girl has dream to be on her own , to do things on her way and style but she never get a chance to nor do the society gives one. Even then , when some one comes forward and do things her way she gets branded and later subjected to be a disgrace to her family. How horrendous !

Women and freedom. Do they have or do not ? Yes they do but sometimes they are denied and that is something very devastating and cruel.

Who doesn't love to travel . Every girl as a secret wish to see the world around and try so many adventures in her life alone or with someone she loves. But most of the time it is not possible in a stereotypical society for her to do that(financial crisis is another factor). For a woman to travel on her own around is the wish of a bad girl not for the good kinds because good women stay home and do slave job . That's what the society would say because society has nothing else to do but sit and see what other people do and criticize them spreading rumors.

When it comes to fashion , it is another impediment in her life. There are girls who wishes to dress their way they like and equally traditional too. But again society divides them. Good and bad. Is that even fair. Dressing up according to the situation and their will is right and again branding them as total gone girl is not. Because we dress up in shorts and skirts and jean and have cool hairstyles doesn't mean we are bad as hell. It is just that we are some upgraded versions of cool people 😉 Being bold matters well dressings and the way we carry ourselves has a huge part in them I strongly believe.. Tom boy types specially are like a cursed species who actually are all strong and bold inside.

People can be so narrow minded and they are all the time. Traveling , making her own decisions , going for a job and dressing up in her way doesn't mean that they are flirts and bad and never listen to their parents. Well that's something really rude to say. For some people they call it crime for girls to be own their own so that some don't even like a girl child being born because of all the risks and stages they think they gotta undergo.

Why is women always considered merely as a sex object and always abused. So there we see it is again the problem of the society. If a girl is given respect and her freedom will men be seeing her that way. Wearing shorts and skirts are not to indicate men that they are available. Forget  modern dressing, will she be left alone from eve teasing even if she is wearing parda. Clearly no. This proves problem is not with the dressing. It is the fault of the men that they don't consider the women with respect but see her in the same eye as they see the unnecessary video clips. We should actually knock the head of people who use internet as a medium to harass women chatting with them and abuse again . Not all but the society is not only very narrow minded but perverted.

Let it all change. Let her be free. Let her chase her freedoms. Lets not make comments on her. Let her fly. This is her life who are we to reign and hold her tight and wrong .
This is the time where the women rules. There are lots of countries now in the power of a woman. The world of literature under the pens of women . Huge number of stars and singers all women. The imf controlled under a woman. Celebrities with higher income ranking first are women. Like wise every sector is now touched by women. Lets not just subject them to maids and objects lets give them what they deserve.

We don't want a feminist world we want a place where we are not caged anymore.

Tuesday, 6 September 2016

Literature : Trend Changing and Trend Setting

Literature came to its prime times during 17th to 20th century . Taking Shakespeare as the beginning , we can see the changes he brought into the world of Theatres , Dramas and Plays. The miracle, mystrey and morality plays all replaced by street plays later in theatres gaining a very large number of audience from all walks of life. Even though there were other play wrights , Shakespeare rules the kingdom of theatres even now , with all his tragedies and comedies. (Macbeth, Kinglear, The Tempest, Mid summer nights dreams, Julius Caesar, etc...) .

Through the sleep walking scene of Lady Macbeth in Macbeth play , Shakespeare brought people to light and made them aware about a new psychological disorder when psychology was not much in progress.

Then came a new dawn of 'Novels' . 18th century was a new era in literature. Richard Samuelson wrote the very first novel 'Pamela ' in the epistolary form (in verse).  This made the readers want more of this kind of books.

Well I think this must have been the beginning of classics and fictions..!! 😉

Ofcourse you all would have heard or read of novels like 'Robinson Crusoe' and 'Gulliver's Travels' . It was on this same century Daniel Defoe and Jonathan Swift wrote these books purely out of imagination. The story about the non- existing islands and magical world the protagonists end up alone on and also on the lap of nature , along struggling to get back home prompting readers to think and cherish non-existing things.

Then came the 'Gothic Novels' which was all full of mysteries and dark magic introducing to people that was merely a superstition and a faint belief that had exsisted. This kept the people on top of the needles . It was a total different concept introduced in literature . Not to mention , these genre got followers like how our present generation are attracted and addicted to the 'Harry Potter' series.

Then came the glorious era of the 19th century. The era of our very favorite writers. The era were the female writers gained wide acceptance and fame.

Jane Austen, Bronte sisters , Charles Dickens, Leo Tolstoy, Sir Walter Scott, Thomas Hardy etc..

Austen's stories were all around the country sides , protagonist and number of her sisters, lords, clergy men, love and marriages kind of concept. So domestic.
(Pride and Prejudice - Elizabeth Bennet and Darcy , Persuasion - Annie and Captain Wentworth etc... )
Bronte sisters trying to keep up equally with men , Emily Bronte wrote ' Wuthering Heights' , one of the out complicated love stories you'll ever come across ( Catherine , Heathcliff, Linton)
Women !! Emotions, who wouldn't like it specially back in the 19th century.
In short we can say that these stories were all very female oriented. Mainly concentrated on women to catch them emotionally. ( even the novel 'Annie of the Green Gables') .

Coming to Thomas Hardy , known as the author of ' Tess of D'Ubervilles ' . Here we can see in the novel that the author has written in such a way that the feelings and emotions of characters are reflected to nature associating with climates.

Dickens and Tolstoy wrote classic novels which all had the theme of social issues , wars and revolutions . ( to take 'Les Miserables' and 'The Tale of Two Cities' contains same issue regarding French Revolution by both authors)

It was during this century the world warmly welcomed the new form of writing 'Science Fictions' . The interest of the readers were turned to science science novels along with the inventions that was going around the globe.
H.G Wells was the author who introduced this kind of writing through his books 'The Time Machine' (an all time mesmerising and mysterious topic) then ' The Invisible Man' etc..

With the birth of 20th century came new literature and authors. D.H.Lawrence was one of them . A very controversial writer who wrote on this period with complex ideas and thoughts bringing Oedipus complex here and there and gay kind of love etc.. to his writings. (Sun's and lovers, lady charolett's lover etc...)

Then came 'Stream of Consciousness' one concept that was experimented and became a success yet a path rarely touched by the writers. (Might be boring and confusing for some readers ) James Joyce and Viriginia Wolfe were the famous and successful writers in this category.

Theatres had keen effect in 20th century. "The Lost Generation" writers, the Post-War period , The loss of faith of people in god, The meaninglessness and hopelessness in life all had been reflected to and fro in the world of literature and society. The coming of Absurd Theatre, the Angry, Cruelty, Epic, Feminine theatres . The coming of new authors and play wrights were all a remarkable change. Henrik Ibsen among them must say was a revolutionary writers who caused large number or social events through his problem plays ( eg: A doll's house) .

Fashion had significance in middle of all these too. The entry of modern dressing from frocks and gowns to jeans and skirts and low cut blouses and it's own head spinning  effect in the society. To point an example from literature the novel ' Gone With The Wind' by  Mitchell Margaret is one, were the character Rhett Butler who frequently voyages to Europe bring gifts from Paris and places to protagonist Scarlett O' Hara which are all new trends in Europe spread from Paris.

There were some others authors during this perios who wrote as protesters through their works. Raising their voice against issues relating to blacks - Slavery against racism etc.. authors like Maya Angelou (I know why the caged bird sings) Wole Soyinka (Telephone Conversation) Chinua Achebe , then James Baldwin , Langston Hughes etc. Were the important ones. Harper Lee's 'To Kill a Mocking bird ' is one example.

To talk about the Poetry , the foundation of literature had it's own significance. The romanticism and everything which made the readers read widely all kind of poetries. From Shakespeare's Sonnets to John Keats's Odes and Epic to Robert Browning's Dramatic Monologue to Andrew Marvell to Tennyson to John Milton to Byron to Shelly all had important roles in marking history and literature.

Elegy, odes, ballad, lyrical poems, sonnets, love poems etc are various varieties.

Taking Keats all his romantic natured poems talking about nature and love. Many of his poems are the experiences of his on love life. Taking the poem 'Man with the Hoe' it talks about the issue of farmers how much they suffer and coming to Hira Basonde s ( Indian Author) poem 'Bosom Friend' talks about the untouchability (Dalits) in the society . Taking  Pablo Neruda's 'Tonight I can write the saddest lines' and Byron's 'when we two parted' talks about the lost love and the pain of it. 'Telephone Conversation 'by Wole Soyinka is about Racism undergone by blacks in the world. Like wide even poems has greater significance in society making people realise of the issues and problems .

This is how literature has it impact on the society ...!!

Then from here changed the world of classics and serious readings to fictions and fiction only with the coming of the 21th century and authors. A modern era in the literature like Danielle Steel, J.K.Rowling, Sidney Sheldon , Dan Brown, Agatha Christie, Jeffery Archer, Mary Higgins Clark, Sandra Brown, Stephen King, Stephanie Mayor, Suzanne Collins, James Dushner, Veronica Ruth etc..

Friday, 2 September 2016

One Last Time

"Hello" Kate picked up her phone in the middle of her packing process. Her flight is in 22hours and 18 minutes counting the time leaving to New York, with a temporary good bye to Kanas State .
"Kate there is something I got to tell you" Aidan's voice cracked through the phone.
"What's it?" Kate asked. Lot of things were going on inside her head , concerning her job and her cat fluffy. She always had nothing to worry about her parents has her mother had died when she was young and her father remarrying for every three years. "Peter is admitted in the hospital, I thought I should let you know" Aidan's disinterest was evident in his voice. But the news had scared the hell out of Kate. Her heart throbbing against her chest.
"What happened? How did it.." her voice trailed off. "Can you come home now " she asked Aidan.
"Nothing's wrong Katie, just a very minor accident . He is fine. " he assured her. Aidan is the only one who called Kate Katie.
"Can you come now" she asked again.
"You are not gonna visit, are you ! "
"Yes. Take me there please.. " she begged. Kate could feel Aidan's disappointment again as she spoke. "Fine" he said and hung up on her. Kate walked over and looked at herself . Pale and sad with tear stained face.
'Today s the last day am gonna be here. Should I tell him ? Or not ! After all these years.. should I let him know for one last time " Kate had been in love with Peter for past three years since college and never had he ever understood that.. They were in the same math class and talked occasionally as friends. He was a very popular guy in college which made him too blind to see her and feel her very existence.
Aidan picked up Kate and drove to the hospital " second floor to left room 3 " he gave her the direction getting out of the car.
"Come with me " she told him
"No" he said.Aidan and Peter had been good friends when they were in school until Peter's rise to popularity, absurdity and lack of time for his friends and Kate's entry.
"Please" she pleaded pulling his hands to walk with her. Aidan has never been able to deny anything Kate had told him or asked him to apart from being best friends, were Kate went too busy to notice.
The act of entering the room without knocking was a grave mistake. The scene of Peter snogging Caroline the attitude came alive girl in the college digged a deep hole in Kate's chest. "Let's go" Aidan murmered irritated.
"No wait" Kate told him back suppressing her emotions.
"Oh you" Caroline moved from Peter with a silly attitude on her face. "How are you" she basked Peter wishing she had listened to Aidan . Aidan was holding her hands . Peter had only a fracture in his right leg and few scratches here and there.
"Pretty good" he said pointing to his legs later looking at Aidan who spoke nothing.Peter looked troubled like a cat caught stealing in front of Caroline to see Kate.
"Came to visit a friend of mine working here she told me you are admitted here.so thought I'll give You a visit.." Kate lied.
"Thank you " he said and nodding to Aidan. 
"Got a job.. flying to New York tomorrow" she let him know even though he didn't bother to ask her how she is or what she's doing.
"That's good. Okay" that was all he said.It was apparent that he never cared. Kate had hinted him many time how she has feelings for him but never had he ever bothered to think about it.
"Peter and I are moving in together" Caroline said sitting on the bed with Peter. Kate's stomach clenched on what she has heard. Her head starting to spin around. Aidan's hands gripped tightly around hers hurting .
"Katie we are getting late for our dinner" all the three faces in the room turned towards him shockingly together. 'Nice' he thought.
"You are with Aidan..? " Caroline asked in utter shock and Peter looking baffled. "And nobody knew" Caroline continued. Aidan shrugged.
'Not even me' Kate thought. She flushed at the very thought 'you're so dead Aidan'
Kate wanted to tell Peter desperately but the things had totally gone out of hands.
Kate felt the earth slip away from her feet below. "Okay then bye." She said' forever'. Her heart in her throat . She decided to never reveal the things to Peter ever in her life and shivered on the very thought with a surging pain.
This was her final chance to tell him, let him know how much her heart had beaten for him how much she liked him now all shattered and taken a new phase in the form of deep hatred. Feeling all disgusted and shamed with the picture of Peter snogging Caroline in her eyes Kate ran out of the room to the parking lot burying her feelings forever for the man who never deserved them, Aidan behind her trying to calm her down. It was cloudy and dark outside with the chance for rain. Summer had ended very fast and the rain has come as a  beginning of a new season and new set of dreams for people , as chances.
"Katie stop"he said holding her sitting inside his car. Kate has been crying for a long time in his shirt. He moved her brown hair off her face looking into her tear filled dull hazel eyes. For the first time ever Kate looked at Aidan closely into his deep ocean blue eyes bright with hopes and something that she never understood before . 
" Why did you lie..? " She asked him slowly wearing off from her weeping mood.
"To save you from everything you would have felt out there " he replied. But Kate searched his eyes.
"And it has been my dream for a long time." He whispered planting a kiss on her forehead. Kate stopped breathing 'No' she thought. 'It can't be'. But she already has realized how much she wanna flee and be alone for the rest of her life. She understood she is gonna hurt someone and cannot be helped by it.
"Yes I have always Katie" he answered her confessing for one last time before she left the state.